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here's my ranting

actually it is sad when we felt like we're being used
actually it is sad when we knew that someone befriend with you for something
friends with interest maybe
and it's sad when we knew the facts but we didn't try anything to change it
maybe because i'm a fool

being ordinary sometimes makes my heart aches
being ordinary makes me difficult to convey my feelings
what is the benefits of having friends that is beneficial to you if your heart aches ?

for you,
even we are best friend
doesn't make you have rights to step on me
i know that you didn't intend to
but stop
please stop

making my heart throbbing
making me jealous
making me wanna hate you for your innocence
please don't make  me act like insan berdosa

i know you didn't realize it
but stop stealing my affection
please stop

just stop

killing me with your innocence !

aku rimas

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Random posting

This blog is not for you to read of
Because it's not a good stuff actually
It's just me ranting about my life
And just another way to achieve my goals
Which one of them to improve my english

Being the second child of my family gave me a greatest burden, not burden actually it's kinda great responsibility

My oldest brother, is not so into English as it's not our second language at home
But, I never judge him because I believe him, believe his abilities, accept him the way he are even though he doesn't knew this fact until now, and often cause slight misunderstanding between us

Why I love him ?

Simple, because he's my brother, now and hereafter.
Whoever tried to speak low about him
They must go through me first.

Being an ordinary person, living in a low-cost areas, doesn't make me felt embarrassed about my upbringing
Because my parents have taught us alot, especially for akhirat

So, for you
NurAd---------
If you ever felt regret of being You
Read this pasting
Remember your family
They are your natural energy booster
And for Allah we seek forgiveness

Abc:)!
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the perks of being me

Sometimes it's hard to behold to your principle.
Especially for people like me, who tend to limit the people who can evolve around me
To them ''yeah ! She's just born with rudeness, heartless personality. Don't bother her.''

But the truth is I felt insecure. I tend to think the negative sides first while of course battling for positive side too. And they thought I'm being defensive.

Maybe it's because of lack of trust
Maybe it's because I think I had enough, for trusting people
Maybe it's because I had been witnessing a lot of painful things happened to my beloved ones
Maybe it's just me.... being weird

I may look tough because I had endure lots if things
I may look tough but  I am always invisibly crying in the corner
I may look tough while hiding my broken, miserably heart

To me, exposing my true color is as hard as people need to choose whom they love between father or mother.

So just please please being considerate
Never try to reach my heart
If you don't want to break yours

It's just me
And the perks of being me

Welcome to the dark side of my world peeps !