the perks of being me

Sometimes it's hard to behold to your principle.
Especially for people like me, who tend to limit the people who can evolve around me
To them ''yeah ! She's just born with rudeness, heartless personality. Don't bother her.''

But the truth is I felt insecure. I tend to think the negative sides first while of course battling for positive side too. And they thought I'm being defensive.

Maybe it's because of lack of trust
Maybe it's because I think I had enough, for trusting people
Maybe it's because I had been witnessing a lot of painful things happened to my beloved ones
Maybe it's just me.... being weird

I may look tough because I had endure lots if things
I may look tough but  I am always invisibly crying in the corner
I may look tough while hiding my broken, miserably heart

To me, exposing my true color is as hard as people need to choose whom they love between father or mother.

So just please please being considerate
Never try to reach my heart
If you don't want to break yours

It's just me
And the perks of being me

Welcome to the dark side of my world peeps !